
I have my suit designed, my theme wear figured out, jewelry purchased and I have my hair and make-up set up. Still figuring out the whole tanning situation but I have a suggestion on who to use just need to make the call. I have my nail appointment set up and was lucky enough to be sponsored by my local salon - Tanglz Color Bar!! I have been amazed at the support both financial & verbal during all this.

The diet has been the toughest part by far. I joked with a co-worker the other day that I was over chicken and fish & just wanted a steak and a beer. She said she would have that steak and beer with me come the end of May. This is more mental than physical for sure, thinking I can actually do this, I can get my body in shape, and giving up time at home to go to the gym, can I pass on that yummy food for chicken and fish again. And the answer is yes, yes I can. I have struggled through way tougher situations than this in the past, deployments, illnesses, college while maintaining a home and family (sometimes alone while Trav was deployed), marital troubles, family shunning, moving to new places and the list goes on and on. I am strong I am powerful and I can do whatever I put my mind to with God's help.
The other issue I have struggled with in all this is the modesty aspect. I am not super shy but I am not showy in what I wear for the most part. I think being short helps, not a lot of skirts or dresses end up short on me. I do wear swim suits but try to be mindful of my audience. I strongly believe we as women have a duty to project ourselves in a becoming way. And as a married woman I believe some things are for my husbands eyes only. If everyone gets to see you in a certain why how then can it be special for your spouse. Yes, I will step onto stage in the tiniest of tiny bikinis but I will be in a place that is somewhat appropriate for that. I do want to use this experience as a motivator for other women, to show what is possible with hard work & determination and to show what I can do with God's help.
The other issue I have struggled with in all this is the modesty aspect. I am not super shy but I am not showy in what I wear for the most part. I think being short helps, not a lot of skirts or dresses end up short on me. I do wear swim suits but try to be mindful of my audience. I strongly believe we as women have a duty to project ourselves in a becoming way. And as a married woman I believe some things are for my husbands eyes only. If everyone gets to see you in a certain why how then can it be special for your spouse. Yes, I will step onto stage in the tiniest of tiny bikinis but I will be in a place that is somewhat appropriate for that. I do want to use this experience as a motivator for other women, to show what is possible with hard work & determination and to show what I can do with God's help.
Like a gold ring in a pig's snout
is a beautiful woman without discretion
Proverbs 11:22